I want you to know


I look at you, and wonder…. where has it all gone?

Time certainly has not stood still.

You have changed. You have grown. You have matured. But you are still learning.

For the past few days, allot of different thoughts and emotions has been going on in me

Siara, as much as we chat, giggle and fool around with a whole range of topics both silly and serious… I would like you to take note of these… cos I think they are important to remember

that…Being a girl is not an excuse.

Be your own woman. Do not be what they expect you to be. Do not fall prey to the stereotypes that have fallen onto girls. You can do anything that you set your mind to do. Do not sell yourself short. If anyone tells you differently, take it as an opportunity to correct the misconception. Be independent.

that…There will always be someone telling you you’re ‘being selfish’ or ‘doing it wrong’.

As your mother, I will  be there to guide you. But, there will always be someone who will tell you HOW you should be. HOW you should do things. There will always be the HOW. Know that You need learn to go your own way, You need to care more about what you want and how you think you should be doing things and worry less about everyone else. This is hard for me as I am a kinda control freak. But I know that in order to be the best you…. you need to be you and not what everyone else wants you to be

that…You don’t have to have children.

Please please please note … that I would love to have grandkids. And this is not me saying that should not…. But I know that having kids is not for everyone. And that is ok. No one should ever make you feel pressured or not good enough if you don’t want to. Don’t feel pressured to do anything you do not want to.

that…You don’t have to get married.

It is not a requirement in life. You need to first learn to stand on your own two feet, to understand yourself, to know your needs, to know what you want.  And when you find that person that doesn’t define you are but compliments who you are … do what your heart feels right and what brings YOU happiness. Love and Commitment does not come from a piece of paper.

that…Respect yourself.

This is the most important. As you are growing and entering your teenage years, remember this. You have got to have some self-respect. You have got to show yourself that self respect. Learn to stand your ground for what you believe. Don’t let yourself be walked over by people. Don’t be put into compromising situations that you are not comfortable with. And if you are, respect yourself enough to get out of it. No one will respect you more than you respect yourself. So set the bar high!!

These are my words to you, mummy’s not so little girl…

I quite like this … so I am sharing :)

Do the things you used to talk about doing but never did.

Know when to let go & when to hold on tight.

Stop rushing.

Don’t be intimidated to say it like it is.

Stop apologizing all the time.

Learn to say no, so your yes has some oomph.

Spend time with the friends who lift you up & cut loose the ones who bring you down.

Stop giving your power away.

Be more concerned with being interested than being interesting.

Be old enough to appreciate your freedom, & young enough to enjoy it.

Finally… know who you are.

~ K. Armstrong

Just BE!!!


Give yourself permission every day to just BE! Enjoy the gift of BEing who you already are!

I came  across these words today and it somehow just rang so true…. it resonates so many different things to different people.

For some it resonates the permission to be themselves …
For me…. it resonates peace …
Too often we spend our days in a whirlwind of activity, never giving ourselves permission to simply BE. To Slow down. To take time to enjoy a quiet moment …
And just enjoy Who You already Are
Something to think about….. right???

Ch… ch…. ch….changes…..

Change is good. Change is unavoidable.

Without change, there is no progress. And I suppose we need to change to grow.

However, not all change is for the better. well that’s how I see it… now

After all the curve balls that has been thrown at me…. after allowing these things to change me, they way I thought, who I was, who I am, …. thinking back…. reflecting… there are some of the things that we should never change about ourselves… EVER

Like ……

The little things that make us smile
They make us smile for a reason. They make our lives worth living. They make us happier.

Our sense of humor
There will be times when there is darkness in our lives, but being able to laugh and see the humour in our everyday makes it bearable.

Our hobbies
They do more good than you realise.. promise

Our True friends
They will always be your safety net

Our energy
Without it, there is no life. Really…..

The way we get excited about the littlest of things
The littlest things have a way of being the things that make our lives amazing.

The way we love
We may have been hurt, disappointed or let down in love, but Don’t lose the essence of love. It’s the most beautiful thing in the world and can always be had once more.

Your faith
In yourself, in others, in God.

I am sure that there is allot more things that we should not change about ourselves amidst this ever-changing world… these are just a few that popped into my head while writing this.


What would your list be??

It’s Over!!!

It has been a while since I blogged. In fact, it has been a while since I did much actually…

Apart from the usual duties that a slave needs to do….

The couch has been a really lovely and inviting spot and I think I can partly blame it on the weather…. actually yes… They cold, dry nipple standing season fondly known as winter is not my get up and go motivator.

But now, with warmer weather, sandal wearing being half-naked season has reared its lovely head, so has my motivation and zest for life.

This lazy winter hibernation that I had, had some good outcomes though.

Laziness does not have to be seen as the Big Bad Wolf…. it somehow gives you a chance to relax, take a step back and give ourselves and our brains a rest from this fast-paced, technology-filled world.

The world where we are constantly carry the feeling that we should always be doing something.

So I did nothing…. well not nothing…. but to other eyes it might have looked that way…

By chillaxing on the couch…. I actually picked up a book and read after so a very long time….. and I found out… I flippen love it….

By daydreaming … I set some goals for the last remaining part of the year… all neatly and obtainably set out in my head off course… let’s hope with old age and determination I can accomplish it…

By being as sick as a cow… I realised the seriousness of my disease again … and even when I lose all personality, I have a hand to hold…

By being so lax … I allowed my mind to heal…. and I am ready to charge forward with renewed energy…

By being lazy … I let things be, not rushing it… letting it all unfold a day at a time. BUT there is only so long that I can hibernate….

The thought of sunshine and rain, seeing my goals unfold, and the restlessness of my soul…. HIBERNATION IS OVER…


So, it actually turns out that being lazy is in fact good for you. It not only boosts your productivity but makes you happier and focuses your attention.

So take some time off on that couch … it will benefit you in the long run.

Maybe not as long as I did… but hey… don’t judge :)

Mother Earth Rocks!!!

Regular centering and clearing ourselves is vital to our well-being.

And, if you know me, you would know that I need nature to recharge my batteries. The earth, the sea, the moon are some of the things that centres me and brings me back to life.

A five hour trip to a mountain lodge this weekend did exactly that.

There was promises of a magical weekend, as a forest driveway greeted us.


The excitement, the oohing and ahhing from Siara and myself were amusing.

And the weekend was everything that it promised…..

Mornings with a view like this was just what my soul need


Once everyone decided to get their lazy bums out of bed,  our day of adventure could begin


We saw the unusual


We learnt a little more about nature


and we drew as much energy from mother earth as we could




which then led to some well deserved warmth, marshmallows and craziness





We returned home revitalised, a little crazier, a little wiser and definitely stress free….

Mother Earth Rocks!!!!!



10 Years and counting

I cannot believe that today we celebrate your 10th birthday.


It has been an amazing journey with you thus far Siara, you really have been our little miracle baby.

I know how much you love hearing the story about how mummy found out I was going to be a mummy… and I am not going to tell it again today, but it was also the first time I heard your heartbeat … and after all those years, you finally chose me to be your mummy. It really was worth the wait, and I do hope that I live up to your expectation.

I know that you are going to read this in a bit, or when you get home this evening. I bet you have been waiting to see what I blog about you….

Here you go my sweet potato

I love watching you grow. I love seeing who you are becoming. I love learning from you.  And I love love love being your mummy…. although there are times when I grind my teeth at you and we have our arguments etc, you are my babygirl….and I love you to the moon and back.

You have grown into a one independent, feisty, stubborn, crazy yet beautiful, loving, caring little person… just like me :P

So you are waiting to read this one right? The 10 things that I love about you…..

I know it’s going to make you smile and frown at the same time…

  1. I love that you still need me in your life
  2. I love that you make breakfast for you and your brother when mummy is not well
  3. I love that you are stubborn about your beliefs
  4. I love that you make me the sweetest handmade cards
  5. I love the way you get angry with us for poking fun at you
  6. I love that I get letters from you
  7. I love that you get so emotional about stuff
  8. I love that you love my food… and you brag about it too
  9. I love that you make me a better person
  10. And I will always love your laugh….. no matter how old you get, or how many times I say it…. it is one of my favourite sounds in the world

Today, I have one piece of advice for you poeps…. Don’t change the way you are…. NOT FOR ANYONE….

Everything that you are…. your smile, your laugh, your mean streak, your willingness to help, your mind, your ideas, your creativity, your independence, your stubbornness, your precious heart….. It makes you YOU…. and I so love the You that you are…


Happy Birthday my sweet angel….  I could not have asked a better daughter than you…. you are the best….